Saturday, 18 October 2014

可不可以你也刚好想念我 ツ

分开之后 很久没有碰面了

今天她出席典礼

真没想到会碰见他。

她跟朋友 到洗手间

他在后面 看到她们

心情很平静 没有起伏

在想 该不该打招呼

害怕 她心里还未原谅

直到她从洗手间走出来

站在礼堂外面等朋友

他走过去了

【你还是没变。】

很熟悉的声音 多久没听到了

却还记得。

她知道 一定...是他。

她转回头 微笑着 [怎么说呢?]

他痞痞地笑了 【很痛对吧?】

她不解 [啊?]

【脚很痛对吧?】

她笑了 [对啊,像以前一样。]

【嗯,像以前一样。明知道脚会痛却又爱穿高跟鞋。】

[你知道的,我太矮了。]

【是啊,你穿了高跟鞋都还是比我矮呢。】

[知道了,你最高了。]

他微笑着 从皮包里拿了OK蹦 【拿去吧。】

她讶异 他怎么还会随时带着OK蹦 [你...]

【习惯了... 你一直很爱穿高跟鞋的,带着带着习惯了呢。】他讽刺似的笑了

她尝试表现的自然 [你也没有变。]

他惊讶 【嗯?】

[像以前一样,很体贴。]

【是吗?呵...】

后来她的朋友出来了

她匆匆说 [那我先进去了。]

他点头之后

看着她和朋友走进去了。

不知道他的心情怎么样

可是她的心情有很大起伏

她想问他:

如果她鼓起勇气告诉他她好想他,

他会不会说他也刚好在想她?

SYLVIA


Thursday, 21 August 2014

决定 ツ

好姐妹心疼了 劝告说 ┏放弃吧。┑


我好奇 ┏为什么?┑



她很理所当然 ┏不值得。┑



我纳闷 ┏没有等到最后,怎么知道值不值得?┑



她很笃定 ┏如今他已有新欢。若这不是终点,那你所谓的终点站,在哪里?┑



我愣了......



然后脑海不断地出现 ┏你所谓的终点站,在哪里?┑



绞尽脑汁也无法寻获答案



所以我放弃寻找这个没有实际答案的问题



然后做了我的决定。



不管终点站在哪里



不管终点站还有多远



反正 终点站还没到



就先 继续下去吧。



既然 爱上了



那就 一直爱



不知道 会爱多久



但是我 还想要爱



所以我 会继续爱



如果痛



那么就



咬着牙



忍着痛



继续爱。


痛着爱

爱着痛

不停爱

爱不停

爱你 我无怨无悔。

请你 不要觉得是负担

因为 我并不会爱很狠

我只是想要 在我还没有

找到喜欢的下一个人之前

继续喜欢你。


SYLVIA

Tuesday, 19 August 2014

心情 ツ

一直以为自己很坚强

现在才知道

自己原来是

碰到伤口就哭的爱哭鬼。

全身力气被抽空了

想要祝福你的啊

可是 你大概也不需要我的祝福啦

与其花光仅存的力气跟你说恭喜

倒不如省省力气跟自己说加油吧

你很幸福 我替你开心啊

多么开心

你的幸福我给不起的

你需要的不是像我这样的

惟有她 才是你想要的

Sunday, 17 August 2014

如果不快乐 ツ

如果不快乐 到浴室洗个头吧

让水洒在头上什么都不去想

把脏头发洗干净自然就快乐



如果不快乐 到梳妆台化个妆

抹一抹遮瑕膏再涂一涂口红

觉得自己很漂亮自然就快乐



如果不快乐 去把衣橱打开吧

挑件性感的裙子不要加外套

在镜子前面转呀转真是快乐




如果不快乐 到床上躺一躺吧

懒洋洋的躺在床上睡美容觉

醒了之后感觉又快乐了一些

















如果不快乐 把电视机扭开吧

按一些搞笑的娱乐节目来看

大声的笑出来就比较快乐了



如果不快乐 翻开一本漫画吧

平旦漫画或黑色水母超级废

哈哈的笑出来就会快乐一些














如果不快乐 上网找些游戏吧

可以上网打怪兽或者扮美美

杀怪兽或打扮美眉都很快乐



如果不快乐 听一些音乐好了

即时是不懂的语言也不错听

跟着旋律似懂非懂快乐地哼



如果不快乐 打电话找老朋友

大家出来一起喝个茶叙个旧

只是聚着说废话也会快乐些













如果不快乐 带钱包去商场吧

买些衣服裙子包包和首饰啊

花些钱疼疼自己实在开心呢













如果不快乐 那就到海边去吧

鞋子脱了安静的走在沙滩上

对着大海大喊释放了就快乐













如果不快乐 到高级餐厅去吧

点些平时不舍得吃的好料吧

吃些好吃的东西真的很快乐




















如果不快乐 去甜品店一躺吧

点个很便宜的红豆冰或杂冰

冰冰的什么都忘了多么快乐



如果不快乐 把头抬得高一些

仰望那个变化无常的天空吧

数一数天空的云朵也很快乐



如果不快乐 到公园走一走吧

想跑就跑累了就慢慢的走着

疲惫地流了汉却还是快乐的




如果不快乐 就不要思念你吧

思念如此苦涩夺走我的快乐

惟有暂停思念让我快乐一些

SYLVIA



Tuesday, 22 July 2014

何必揭 何必拆 ツ

有些事情

你知道 我知道

我们都知道

那就这样吧

很自然的

相处着。

我不揭穿

你不拆穿

没事似的

相处着。

这样 不是很好吗?

并非所有的话

都需要说吧。

我喜欢坦白

你喜欢直接

可是有些话

依然是禁忌。

你揭了

我认了

会比较好吗?

我拆了

你晓得了

会比较好吗?

都揭开

然后莫名其妙

何必呢?

我什么也没有要求。

我没有想过 你会不会知道。

我其实一直以为 你不知道。

我以为 全世界 只有我自己知道

我就这样努力的守护着

属于我自己的秘密。

忽然之间

你强调着 你什么事都晓得

我也知道 你都知道了

我以为 会没有变化

可是 为什么

依然有变化?

难道注定某些事

如果揭开了

就无法毫无改变两个人的关系吗?


SYLVIA

Monday, 21 July 2014

郁闷 ツ

心情郁闷

无处宣泄

我唯有

大声呐喊

大吃大喝

泪流不停

发呆慌神

行尸走肉

大声的笑

人不像人

然后

停止想你


SYLVIA

Saturday, 19 July 2014

不要不爱 ツ

我答应你 如果你很忙 我不打扰你

我答应你 如果觉得吵 我就不说话

我答应你 如果觉得烦 我就会消失

我答应你 你说不靠近 我会离很远

我答应你 你说别依靠 我就不依赖

我答应你 不去探索你 因为你一直都如此高深莫测

我答应你 不去了解你 因为你一直都无法被人看穿

我答应你 你说你不爱 我就不再乞讨

你不爱 可是不要逼我 也不爱

如果爱你 让你很困扰

对不起 我真的不是故意的

请你 不要厌倦我

请你 不要厌恶我

请你 不要说我烦

请你 不要不爱我

SYLVIA

Tuesday, 8 July 2014

喜欢你的我 ツ

有时候我问自己说 你太笨了吧

这么多年了 你还想怎么样呢

我没有想要怎么样

这么多年 我不曾逼自己放弃

并非找不到放弃的理由

只是 想要顺其自然

只是想说

在我喜欢下一个人之前

就这样继续的喜欢着你

这样 不可以吗

怎么不可以

这么多年以来

都是这样的啊

痛了再爱 爱了再痛

跌跌撞撞 努力的爱

微笑的流着泪

难过的大笑着

不是想要把自己说得很可怜

即使可怜 是自取的

谁让我 爱你

其实 喜欢你 很幸福

虽然说 喜欢一个不喜欢自己的人

可悲的好像每一天都在失恋

可是你不一样

爱你的方式

不可以像爱其他人一样

喜欢你 必须很坚强

足以抵挡你的冷酷

喜欢你必须很坚强

足以让泪水不淌下

喜欢你 必须很坚强

足以不在乎你超好的异性缘

喜欢你 必须很努力

不可以当一个笨蛋

喜欢你 必须很努力

不可以当一个书呆

喜欢你 必须很努力

不可以当一个弱者

喜欢你 必须 很强很强

才可以一次又一次

一针一线缝补心里的裂缝

喜欢你 必须 很强很强

才可以在痛的时候说没事

喜欢你 必须很强很强

才能够流下泪的时候微笑

喜欢你的我 一点也不强

喜欢你的我 很弱

总在夜晚的时候想你

黑眼圈似乎成了想你的痕迹

喜欢你的我 很弱

总是满脑子都是你

发呆好似变成了想你的动作

喜欢你的我 很弱

情绪操控权 你轻易占有着

你的小小动作 我足以心花怒放

你的只字片语 我足以撕心裂肺

imissyoufromtimetotime, justlikehowmuchdoyoumissher.
iloveyouverymuch, justlikehowdeepdoyoufallforher.

SYLVIA

Monday, 9 June 2014

只是 谢谢你 ツ



。六年级。

他说:待会儿老师问我为什么缺课,你要说我生病噢。

她说:嗯!

他说:我们打勾勾吧。不可以说我翘课噢!

她说:我不会说你翘课的,你放心吧!

然后他们勾勾小指头

然后她完成了承诺。

所以他说:谢谢你噢!



。初一。

他们被派到同样的中学。

他还是很懒惰 爱缺课

他今天又缺席

放学回家

她信息他:今天老师让我们做华语作文!

他回:什么题目?

她回:我最难忘的一件事

他回:谢谢你啊!



。初二。

他们同班。

他不做报告

期限到了 还在吊儿郎当

她替他紧张 就帮他做了一份报告

托朋友交给他

他把报告交上去了

帮他做的报告 老师竟然给了比自己的报告更高的分数

他传字条给她:那个匿名报告,你做的吧?谢谢你。



。初三。

他交了女朋友。

一个晚上 跟女朋友吵架了

他信息她:心情不好。

她回:怎么了吗?

他回:不想说。陪我随便聊聊好吗?

他们聊了两个小时。

他回:很晚了,去睡吧。

她回:嗯,晚安。

他回:今天晚上,谢谢你。



。高一。

其实很少聊了 各忙各的关系吧。

他主动信息她的:有空吗?

她回:没忙。干嘛呢?

他回:我朋友在卖耳机。你有兴趣吗?

她回:怎么卖?

他回:大的RM80,小的RM40。你喜欢听歌吗?大的好用噢。

她回:为什么好用呢?

他回:隔音的。你只要开1格音量就很大声,连妈妈训话也听不到。

她很努力向朋友推销。

然后她回:那我要两个大的,两个小的。大的白色和粉红。

他回:明天把耳机给你。谢谢你!




。高二。

晚上很无聊。

她信息他:忙吗?

他回:不忙。

她问:在干吗?

他回:读小说。

她回:我也很喜欢小说。

他回:我喜欢武侠小说。

她回:呵呵。我都看爱情小说。

他回:我也会看言情的。你有很多小说吗?

她回:大概很多吧。要借看吗?

他回:借5本可以吗?选5本你最爱的。

她回:好,明天托你的朋友传给你。

他回:麻烦你了,谢谢。



。高三 第一年。

他一直都是这么爱翘课兼不做功课

assignment不做 presentation不准备

她看不下去 都帮他搞定了

花很多时间弄的 可她没怨

他问她:花了多久时间弄的影片?

她说:那一天听你说不会,晚上就做了,一直到隔天傍晚。

他问:就是多久?

她回:24小时左右。

他回:很快啊。

她回:或许已经知道怎么做吧。因为我已经做完我的影片了。

他说:谢谢你。



。高三 第二年。

她当了班长。

他没变 依然吊儿郎当

还是很爱翘课。

老师问:班长,今天谁缺课?

她说:老师,今天22个学生到齐了。

隔天再问:班长,今天多少个学生缺课?

她说:三个。(明明是四个,她没有点算他也是其中一个)

她信息他:校规说明连续三天缺课会收到警告信的。

他回:我就是起不了床。级任老师有说什么吗?

她回:我没告诉他你缺席。

他回:为什么?

她回:你的出席率好低。

他回:明天我会去学校。谢谢你。

然后他明天又缺课了。

他信息她:帮我和老师说,我生病了。

她回:你已经起床了,快来学校吧。

他回:今天真的病了,发烧了。

她回:我会跟老师说的。

他回:谢谢你。

老师问:今天有学生缺席吗?

她说:到齐。



。高三毕业典礼。

或许以后见不到了

她问:这么多年以来,你说了很多谢谢。

他答:因为你为我做了很多事。

她心想:他知道的。

她问:为什么一直都是“谢谢你”而不曾是“我爱你”?

他说:我们之间是感激。

她潇洒:我当然懂啊。我也不爱。

他没看穿她的难过:嗯,我谢谢你,可我不爱你。



。结束。

他真的跟她说了很多很多的谢谢。

不管她为他做了多少事情

大大小小的事情

他都只能说 谢谢你

他始终不说 我爱你。



SYLVIA

Monday, 2 June 2014

My Manila Trip ツ






27th May , Tuesday

Absent to school because im flying to Manila, Philippines in this morning! Wake up early in the morning and going to airport with pink long pants. To mention about my pants's color is just because I do really dislike pink. Except when the pink color is nice. Hahahah. 


We reach the airport around 8.30am, so after we done everything we had our breakfast in the airport cafe. And after that, we wait for our aeroplane heheh. I guess it delayed. Hais. 


Everything goes smoothly. Thanks God because we reach Manila safely. Our tour guide was waiting us at the airport, and then we went to check in our hotel at first. After checking in our hotel, we went to Robinson Mall. Its a very big shopping mall. And we shop happily at there, because I bought a lot of things hahaha. I just feel so speechless because after we paid the bill for my dress at the counter, we go out from Robinson Department Store, and while we are going out, its just still on the way going out because my shoes is havent out to the exist, my heels broke? Shitttttt. It was just a picture from google because I leaved my shoes at the hotel. Well, so I can just walk around the Robinson Mall to look for a new pair of slipper. We used about 20 minutes maybe, and finally I get a pair of new shoes at Adidas and I love it very much. Thanks God! 

And then after having dinner at food court of Robinson Mall, we went to night market. What I think before I reach Manila is, Manila's night market is surely a super dangerous place and I dont actually wish to go there. But the event is arranged by tour guide so we may just go there for awhile. So when the driver asked about how long do we want to stay at the night market, we used to answer one hour. Too bad, because I actually feel maybe I need more time to stay at there. Items sell in the night market is really really cheap! You may not believe in its quality as its price is just so cheap. But I think actually its acceptable. I bought 2 watches at there, because one of them is half apple shape, like the Apple slogan of Iphone. Hahahha and I love the color, its turquoise color heheh. Even the two watches maybe do not have very long life, maybe just a few months but I still like it lalalalala. Ahhhh after the night market, we have our supper at Jollibee. Goodnight!




28th May , Wednesday

Its the second day in Manila. And today is the starting of my semester break, officially holiday! Happy holiday everyone! I start my day with taking breakfast in the hotel restaurant. The breakfast is still okay, and the orange juice is very very sour. I didnt taste it but everyone comment about its very sour. So, after breakfast, we go to 168 shopping mall, 999 shopping mall and Lucky China Town. So sad because I have not enough time to shop around Lucky China Town. And I do not have enough time to shop finish 168 shopping malls because we only able to finish building 2 and we do not have time for building 1. But I bought quite a lot stuffs at there, still happy! After the 168 shopping malls, we go to 999 shopping mall as planned. The clothes at there is also quite cheap heheh. 

 

I actually almost crashed by car outside the 168 shopping mall when we walk to 168 shopping mall to meet our driver from 999 shopping mall. The road is so busy, cars everywhere and a lot of people like the chinese quote people mountain people sea. The distance between me and the white color van is just maximum 3cm. I even can see that my hair is flying towards the car's window. My hair is at the window. Shittttttt. My parents is walking behind me and they get shocked and run towards me. Of course they ask me are you okay at first, but after I say I am okay, they scold non stop made me feel annoying. But well, I know, they love me. So, sorry because made you two worried about me, im sorry dad and mom.  




Baaaaaa after that we go to visit around San Sebastian Church and Malate Church and we visit around Manila city by transport. Its the horse car! Hahhahah I just translate it from chinese because I dont know what it actually named. And then we visit around the Intramuros, we are really surprised because there is so big. And then we have our lunch. At Manila, pig is everywhere. After having lunch, we went to Mall of Asia. There is very very very big and we are really really tired. Of course we do not have enough energy to shop all of the shops there hahahah. I saw pancaragam there, their performance is so wonderful wow. Goodnight!





29th May , Thursday

Today we wake up a bit late, alarm set 8.00am but we wake up around 7.45am, because my cousin's parents come to our room in the morning. So we quickly wake up and prepare to have our breakfast at ground floor of hotel. Breakfast is still okay, and the orange juice is still sour. Today, Manila is raining heavily. We proceed to Tagaytay and visit the People's Park. And we went to Tierra de Maria. And I made a wish there. Truly wish that my wishes may comes true.



We have our lunch at Chic-Boy. The slogan is so cool hahahaha. And the we go to Starbucks which beside the Chic-Boy. The Starbucks cashier spelled wrong my name, theres always my friends spell my name wrongly but this is the first time my name spelled as Xylvia. But he is still able to pronouns my name correctly hmmm. And there have such wonderful view, so my mood is very good hahaha. Then we check in at the Vacation House. And then we went to nearby Robinson Supermarket. We bought some tin foods and popcorn. In Manila, even instant noodles's flavor is also pork. Hahahhaa the first time to try pork instant noodle and its not bad. I dislike dinner today because I feel its so abnormal. Guess what? We had little duck as dinner! But I didnt taste it of course. Oh my goshhhhh. My tongue not suit with Philippines's food. Well, the vacation house's bed is not really as comfortable as hotel's bed we overnight yesterday. Because we are unable to sleep well hais. Goodnight!


it looks cool but it is not tasty actually.









30th May , Friday

We feel very grateful about the vacation house provided us breakfast! Because yesterday we all still very headache about what do we eat today morning. Even the breakfast is simple, but we do appreciate. And I feel the breakfast is not bad heheh. Too bad they only provide Nescafe and Milo is not provided. In Manila, almost every morning I miss my home because I dont have Milo here. After breakfast, we went to Taal Volcano. We need to go by boat and after the boat we ride the horse because we do not have interest to climb up to the top of the volcano.



After the Taal Volcano, we bring all our stuff and back to Manila from Tagaytay. On the way, we stop over the Market Market. We bought some dry mangoes there. There is dry papaya and dry pineapple too but we didnt try. There is a mini food court. I had a cup of Orange Shake with 69 peso. The orange shake is super wonderful and I miss it so much! After enjoying cool drinks, we go to Makati Ayala Center. And then we check in to our hotel at Manila again. I slept with my parents tonight because my backbone is so painful after riding the horse. My body full of plasters. Goodnight!

 

31 May , Saturday

Enjoy the breakfast provided by hotel again. Used some time to tidy up myself before going to lobby, because my backbone is still painful like im OKU hais. Well, we visit the shoes museum today. And we have the chance to see the biggest shoes in the world. It is the world's largest pair of shoes which certified by the GUINESS BOOK OF WORLD RECORDS in 2002! It measures 529 centimeters long and 237 centimeters width and was completed within 77 days. It is currently kept at the Shoe Gallery of Marikina Riverbanks.





 here is the largest shoes in the world!

After the shoesssss, we go to Greenhills. We are really tired as we shopping almost everyday. So we just simply shop around. And I still able to bought a long sleeve shirt without trying. Hahahah because we are lack of time hmmm. Today is the last day, tour guide arranged us to go St. Francis Square after Greenhills but we rejected. We requested to go back to Robinson Mall again, to buy some stuffs as we are going back Kota Kinabalu tomorrow! We eat our dinner very early tonight. And then we back hotel early to pack our luggage. Before we sleep, we have Mc Donald tonight. I realized that fast food here is always have spaghetti combo hmmmm. After Mc Donald and chit chatting with cousins and brother, we rest early tonight because we are going to wake up at 5am tomorrow. Goodnight!



01 June , Sunday

Good morning! Wake up super early in the morning! Rushing to airport. Who knows? Traffic jam! Because of road blocks for cross-country competition. Run run run everyone run! Heheheh. The driver comfort my mommy, ask her not to worry because we all realize she is really nervous. He keep looking for short cut so we can reach the airport without late and he promise us to reach the airport at 6:37am and he managed to do that! Woohoo. And we are managed to stand at the first person in the long queue. We waited for a long time before we are allowed to go in. We do not miss the flight! Feeling great because I dont really wish to stay two more days at Manila. Just because im really tired of travelling 6 days and 5 nights here. But actually, I dont feel mad to stay if we really missed the flight because my friend told me the Luncheon meat's brand yesterday night when we are already in hotel. Of course we do not have chance to buy it. But nevermind, we appreciate what we bought. While we are waiting aeroplane, I start to think back how do my house look like, staying in Manila for so many days, I actually forget how do my house look like. But, I do really miss my messy bed, every night when I sleep. 



Its almost 11 am and Thanks God because we reach Kota Kinabalu safely! So we have our lunch with cousin's family because my Uncle come to airport and fetch us to my home. Home sweet home! Finally I can eat normal food, taking shower happily, washing my hair properly, drying hair with normal hair dryer and sleep comfortably, and online with my Samsung Tab! 306 messages from Wechat and 5 messages from LINE and 5 messages Facebook pm and 3 short message service (SMS) but all of the sms are advertisement huh. After taking lunch, everyone enjoying their short nap but I online and play Candy Crush non stop, until 5pm in the evening then I have my short nap.

SYLVIA